Anxious Grasping

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Have you ever found yourself anxious about whether or not you would be successful as a home educator? Have you ever found yourself stressing and ruminating as you struggle with one child and his or her grasp of a particular subject or character trait? What if this? What if that?

You are not alone. We all want success for our children, and we all take daily steps to ensure proper training for the children for whom we are responsible, whether they be our biological children, foster care children, friends’ or neighbors’ children, or nieces and nephews.

However, God did not design us to stress and worry. God designed us to live in peace (Galatians 5:22-23), to walk in the Spirit (John 15), and to lean into the guidance of the Good Shepherd (Psalm 23:1). When Psalm 23:2 states, “He leads me by still waters,” still waters in the Hebrew means waters of rest.

Perhaps Kelly Willard’s “Cares Chorus” (1978, Maranatha! Music) will remind you what we are to do with our cares: “I cast all my cares upon You. I lay all my burdens down at your feet. And anytime that I don’t know what to do, I will cast all my cares upon You.” Or, perhaps Keith Routledge’s “My Peace” (1975, Kenwood Music) will be another reminder: “My peace I give unto you. It’s a peace that the world cannot give. It’s a peace that the world cannot understand. Peace to know, peace to live . . . My peace I give unto You.”

As you reflect on what it means to follow Your Shepherd along waters of rest, prayerfully ask the Lord the following:

  • Lord, show me my heart. Am I resting in You?
  • Lord, show me if am leaving the educational and spiritual outcomes of my child’s growth and maturity to You, or if I am grasping for results that You alone can orchestrate.
  • Lord, if am anxiously trying to control each homeschooling endeavor . . . help me see this and learn through the tutelage of Your Spirit a new way to let You do the work through me, rather than for me to try to control each outcome.

Lord Jesus, please give me the grace to do my best and leave the outcome to you. Help me to let go and let Your Spirit do the work. Amen.